surprised it took this long! I suddenly thought about what could have stopped
me from writing a single post, since most of what I wrote are just some of my
experiences in life. Or , when I feel especially creative.
have been too easy for me to create one. But lately, trying to start the first
few sentences became a challenge for me. I seemed to have forgotten my subjects
nothing special to write. My life is boring!
self-esteem. Years after gaining back
the self-confidence I lost, I feel like I am back to where I was once
into that other phase of bipolarity? Although I was not diagnosed as bipolar, I
had already started my clinical assessment. Because I was seen to have some
symptoms of it, I presumed to be suffering from it.
There are different types of Bipolars, with different amount
of extremities. Bipolars may not only have mood swings that spans in a day, but
in some cases , the mood changes can span in months. It could be six months of
depressive mood, and then six months of manic mood, or vice-versa. And not
necessarily the same number of months, it could be years. Nothing can really gauge
unproductive, idle and uncreative. All
those negative beliefs about yourself comes out. You become a pessimist.
Socializing can be so daunting and getting out of bed is a challenge.
do anything. You are super creative at work, so happy, go on spending sprees
and other things which are way above what you would normally do. You become so productive it could make you
lose focus of things you want to do. I tend to multitask, and eventually not
able to finish something.
on a particular side of the moods.
feels. It sort of ignited something deep inside me and all of a sudden, l had an
outpouring of these feelings, the emotions came out. It sort of broke the rut that I was in. I was finally free from
months of torture of not being able to do what I loved to do.
especially for me.
It’s past midnight and I am still wide awake. The words just seem
to float in my mind and I need to write them down now, because if I don’t, I will forget about all about it tomorrow.
That’s for sure.
bipolarity? If so, then many good things can happen. And I can make them
more, live more. And I am getting excited every day.
you have not said it yet, say it now.
of your mind’s polarity.