for me to write continuously about the events in my life. Sometimes, I get this
feeling of uncertainty, of being unsure if people are still getting inspired
with what I say. Sometimes, I get the feeling that people may think I am being
egoistic, trying to write so much about myself, myself and myself.
co-blogger and friend Apple of An Apple A Day once asked me in a private
conversation what challenges I encounter in a blog of my genre. I have to add
something to my reply to her.
because bloggers in my genre talks about sensitive topics most of the time, we
do not want to hurt or come on to people in a negative way. I am also aware
that people would one day somehow get tired of my life’s story.
challenge would always be to think before blogging, will my post inspire this
time or not? Will people still care with
what’s happening in my life right now?
that. There will come a time when people would eventually grow tired of
reading the same things over and over again. And when the time comes that I
have stopped inspiring people with what I do, I guess that’s the time I have to
conclude my blog, or else , reformat if I want to continue blogging.
book. People who read my blog have at least a share of my ups and downs. And I
thank each and every one of you who laughed and cried with me through each
happy and painful moments in my life. There’s been so much written, so many
experiences shared, so many laughter resonated and many tears shed. And the
thought that people can relate or at least empathize with every victory I
share, that just inspire me to continue blogging as well.
life, as we all must go on and leave the past behind. I may still have some
unfinished business (like the forgiveness thing), I guess the right time will
come eventually, I don’t need to pressure myself into this.
can see the brightness tomorrow will bring. I realized that writing the same
posts, with the same bitterness, anger and resentment, I was tying myself with
because I would also lose the familiar place, the familiar feeling of having those
emotions. I got so comfortable in that space and I dreaded getting out of my
comfort zone. I am scared of feeling new feelings.
be undone. Tonight is a turning point for me, a moment which I know I won’t
regret. Tonight, I continue to live. Just live. I don’t want a mediocre life. I
want more from life. I want to live life to the fullest.